Petrichor.

Without asking it fills you

As thunder rolls around your shoulders

And those first crashing drops

Smack down with force

Water passionately kissing earth

Dirt hissing, aerosolised

Rock yeilding its mineral secrets

For the promise of rain

Air ionised and charged

As if expectation could have its own scent

This living planet exhaling

Its breath in our face

Like the musky sweat of a lover

Gathering us in an embrace

Or the milky tang of a mother

Who tucks us gently into the warm bed

Of yet another wet season storm

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These Are The Days.

These are the days

Of terror and silence

When every friend becomes a foe

These are the days

Where infamy shall follow you

Like a black shadow wherever you go

These are the days

That hunt in packs, dog days

Ready to tear flesh from bone

These are the days

When the last of your strength leaves you

And you realise we all die alone

These are the days

Without mercy or compassion

Locking you behind a barbed wire fence

These are the days

Of madness and rage

Where mass murder makes complete sense

These are the days

Of share-holder angst:

You sold your soul for less than its worth

These are the days

Of micro-plastic pollution

The suffocation of planet Earth

These are the days

Where you are defined as sober

When you would rather be drunk as a lord

These are the days

That creep up on you like a spy

And strangle you without a word

These are the days

When nights last forever

Giving all days a bad name

These are the days

Bearing witness to stupidity

Each new day bringing more of the same

These are the days

That thrash you like a red-headed step child

Leaving you trembling in a corner

These are the days

Of gnashing teeth rising from the deep

The shark days dragging you under

These are the days

Which, given half a chance,

Would see you cast into the blackest pitch

These are the days

Of acceleration: they mow you down

And leave you lying in a ditch

These are the days

When you think banning all future days

Sounds like a good idea

Then there are the days

When you strike a seam of hope

And think it possible to live without fear

© shaun patrick green 2018

At Least The Fish Are Happy.

You complain about kids and a stunted life,

Or being worked to the bone

Underpaid for your strife,

The horror of being a teenager

Or being a trophy wife

A footy player who's past his prime,

An actor who can't turn on a dime.

We are all popping Prozac

Like there is no tomorrow

And it calms you down;

There is no such thing as sorrow.

The prescribed dose per day,

Washed down with water'

Then pissed away

Into sewerage treatment

That doesn't filter down

To microns per million,

Then spewed out into the ocean,

Like a waste managers dream.

When the toxicology reports come back

They say: my bad...

Fish and shrimp are being medicated

For conditions they didn't know they had

© shaun patrick green 2018

Pause (for Johann Johannsson).

I have nothing
And yet I will outlive you

Not because I am stronger

Weaker perhaps

But safer

Through the worlds you scored

Because I could never soar

To your heights

Like a god

Though human wrapped in chords

Albeit a genius

With lilting melodies

And abrasive disharmonies

You brought forth the best in us all

Like some servant of a deity

Where art meets artifice

And music is everything

Your passing leaves a gap

A pause

© shaun patrick green 2018

I'll Show You Mine If You Show Me Yours.

Her name was Kim and her skin was bad

Like mine, eczema, though worse, somehow

On a girl, as if that rhyme about what

Little girls and boys are made of had failed her:

She was not sugar and spice and all things nice.

We, as a collective of 8 year olds,

Had cast her out as defective, and yet,

I had feelings for her.

I knew what it was like to have that itch.

To draw blood with my fingernails,

To wear those dry patches, lizard skin, scales,

To daub myself with steroid creams

That would sting so much they made me scream

But my complaint was mostly hidden

Hers was on her face

For one so marked

School can be an ugly place

There was one recess when we were playing chasey

And she had cornered me in the boys' toilets

I had always thought she liked me

So amid the shit stained, piss-stinking walls

I uttered those words:

"I'll show you mine if you show me yours."

She nodded, feverish from the chase

Panting with expectation

So I undid my pants and pulled it out

She immediately screamed and ran

And told everybody in the quadrangle

That I had shown her my thingy

I scrambled out after her, shouting

"No I didn't, no I didn't!"

And because I was the one not visibly disfigured

Because I was a boy, because my family were nice,

Because my lunchbox was always interesting,

Because I was smart, because I wasn't poor,

They all believed me over her.

© Shaun Patrick Green 2018

Hope.

Do I hold you gently

And pretend we can be friendly?

After what we have seen

Neither of us gets off lightly.

Your coughing,

My snoring

Your constant texting

My constant cursing

Your genius for mess

My almost OCD need

For order and cleanliness

Your love of reality TV

My disdain for oxymorons

Your pride in Hungarian heritage

My indifference to where I come from

Your love of your vocation

My need for music and art

Your skill with needle and thread

Transcending what you call "craft"

Politics makes you yawn

I need to know each minister's name

You roll your eyes at election time

I enjoy the tactics of the game

I never wanted children

You wanted someone to teach

So we fought your cancer

To obtain a daughter

Who is beyond both our reach

You take the mornings

Feuding over being fed

I take the evenings

Bath time, teeth cleaning and bed

You try to teach her concepts

I make her laugh with rhymes

Imagination is about

Making up stupid stuff

Not learning Gray's Anatomy

She's 4 years old

Let her discover

Her own knowledge trajectory

But you disrupt the feedback loop

Of our personal dialectic

Forcing me to focus on what matters

Placating my internal skeptic

I could laugh and spoil her all day

But your head remains cool

You don't want an entitled brat

And remind me that she is in preschool

That children are here to learn

To hopefully make the world a better place

Than the festering toilet we have left them

Our legacy, our disgrace,

And like generations before us

She shall grow to fill our lack,

Plug the gaps in our understanding,

We hope, and bring our planet back.

© Shaun Patrick Green 2018

Tennant Creek Drive -In

Help me somebody

The walls are closing in

And sharks are biting my shins

Because of the Tennant Creek Drive-In

You remember, when we got in for free

Because dad was a Apex Club member

And it was his job to run the projectors

Carbon rods burning white hot

While the town scowled in the dark

We saw such terrible and wonderful things

In the back of our Holden station wagon

Where we were meant to fall asleep

But we didn't

The best and worst of 70's

Exploitation Cinema

Was our dreamscape

While our mum waited for the gig to end

As she had done ever since her 19th year

We saw, while peaking over back seats,

Wild animals ripping people to shreds

People being shot, disemboweled, decapitated,

Blown up, stabbed, invaded by parasites

Maybe a 5 year-old shouldn't be seeing this?

I asked my mum, years later, once my daughter was born

Her advice on raising children.

She said: You pretty much raised yourselves

Did we?

Maybe I should write a how-to book
That takes a long hard look
At how to raise kids free of nightmares
Page one would probably begin:
Don't take your 5 year-old
To the Tennant Creek Drive-In.

© shaun patrick green 2018