Sunday, July 21, 2013

Winter in the Desert.

She felt nothing
Only a slow sinking
As he rationalised
His infidelity
Blamed it on drinking
Blamed drinking on her
So it was her fault
In the end after all
How did that work?
Had she asked too much
In wanting to be loved?
That there be trust
Commitment of a sort?
His mind was a mystery
As was his history
She had found this
Attractive at first
A blank screen onto
Which she could project
The when, the why and how
But no consolation now
She would have to relearn
What it meant to be alone
His touch a memory
Like the fingers of
Winter in the desert
Cup of water for
A drowning woman

© shaun patrick green 2013

in the garden

kisses on her eyelids
waking from sleep
warm breath and smiles
a promise whispered
she pretends not to hear
presents a flank
for gentle stroking
birdsong burbling
in cool morning air
a day beckoning
beyond tea and toast
the garden needs work
tomatoes to stake
seedlings to plant
leaves to rake
our hands in dirt
a moment when I
will look across
loving/knowing
her hair will fall
across her face
as if reminding me
of timeless truths
everything born will die
this a garden's gift
of tough fragility
evaporating youth

© shaun patrick green 2013

Monday, July 15, 2013

A Gravestone For Mary Scott-Tweedhead.

She was born Mary Scott-Tweedhead
On July Twelve, Nineteen Sixty Nine.
Boris Scott and Judy Tweedhead were proud,
Though this feeling would pass with time.
Mary's first failure was as a daughter;
She could see it in her parents' eyes.
Though her mother put on a grimly brave face,
Dad's chagrin was thinly disguised.
She was meant to be a doctor or lawyer
But chose the path of an artist instead,
Spending three years on acid in art school
Learning to sculpt her way out of her head.
Failure as a wife was next on the list,
Marrying Hugh Selwyn who was a deaf mute.
They communicated with hand signs and eyebrows;
He was a painter, still life, mainly fruit.
Being both artists they never had any money -
When children arrived, things became worse.
Arguments were silent though wildly expressive,
The most common sign being empty purse.
It wasn't only the purse that was empty, however,
As she and Hugh drifted apart,
Resulting in her third failure - as a mother:
No room for kids in a broken heart
When the split came she blamed herself, of course,
Gave custody of both children to Hugh.
Feeling the price paid for loving was too high,
She bought a shack in the hills painted blue
Where she sat and sculpted from dawn until dusk
Using hammer, chisel and local stone.
It wasn't quite clear what she was making,
Even to her; perhaps a monument to being alone.
The locals took interest in her burgeoning work,
Proud of having an artist in their midst.
But as the years passed without its completion,
The chances of it being finished were dismissed.
It was only when a neighbour, Lars Nordstrom,
Went to check whether Mary needed supplies,
That he found her slumped in a chair, tools in hand
All signs of life fled from her eyes.
Before her, on a workbench, lay a simple gravestone,
Shaped by hand from hewn granite
And in a careful, almost delicate script,
These words were carved upon it:
     Mary Scott-Tweedhead
     Lies here quite dead
     She meant well but let life assail her
     Living only so long
     To know she was wrong
     This was her very last failure.
Lars, an artist himself, was bemused,
Knowing how assiduously Mary had toiled.
To have only produced this underwhelming piece
Meant his opinion of her would be spoiled.
It was only after gathering Mary's belongings
That Lars entered the shed in the yard.
To his astonishment he found it packed to the rafters
With gravestones all beautifully carved,
Each one an apologia, warning, hymn, requiem,
Desperate search for some acolyte to anoint.
In the end she wouldn't bend to the truth of millennia:
A blunt chisel always misses the point.

© shaun patrick green 2013

Friday, July 12, 2013

Leaving Home.

There by the old shed wall
Under the flowering plum
His brother brick in hand
Had let it fall upon his toe
Weeks passed in silent wonder
At the toes changing colour
First blue, black, then grey
Until the nail came clean off
Leaving exposed flesh and this
Horror of what lies underneath

Here was his room and bed
Memories of nights spent rigid
Under blankets as storms howled
Wind whipping branches against
Windows like old mans fingers
The fear in him still lingers
Ghost of childhood insecurities
Persisting into the present as
A vague distrust of pensioners
Gnarled extremities

The kitchen table still
Stands solid as a fortress
Way too big for the space
But preferable to its cousin
In the formal dining room
With its dark colonial air
And stiff cushionless chairs
Where eating became torture
To be endured without talking
While ones mouth was full

His parents bedroom remains
A taboo realm of dark secrets
Precious objects and fear
Temple to vengeful gods whose
Wrath was swift and precise
Aided by their all-seeing eyes
From which no fault or crime
Could be hidden for long
A power he now possesses
Conferred upon him by age

This house was a factory
Where quality control had
Gone right out the window
Churning out broken people
So much time spent nurtured in
The black heart of beige walls
Must crush what the soul calls
Its need for freedom and so
He always feels coming home
Is never as sweet as leaving it

© shaun patrick green 2013

Thursday, June 13, 2013

Just Below The Shore Line

(for Lori Watson)
My brother and I
Crammed in Dads fourteen footer
Sleeping knawl tight on high seas
The smell of brine, kelp and blood
Coiled up in dreams of mum
But when the ropes went down
We would wait and fish
Dad on the prow feeding out line
Us waiting baited on where
To drop anchor and put in
His determinations elusive
Mythical, based on an extra sense
That men have about these things
Making them either slaves
Or fathers or kings
A tug from below and pull
Flathead skipping across the hull
Him stabbing at the base of the skull
That's how you kill a fish
That's how you raise a child
Turning the boat back toward land
He would bring the catch 
Back to his wife
One girl, one boy, six flathead
To be scaled and gutted and fried
Eaten with potato salad and lemon
While the sun sank
Just below the shoreline

© shaun patrick green 2013

Poetry As A Political Alternative.

"Rimbaud," she shouted at me
And I failed to see how this
French fop had changed anything
Except the way gay people write
"Baudelaire," she shouted again
Me sifting through the literature
Finding nothing revolutionary
The guy was a syphilitic sponge
A maudlin dandy without
Political or artistic intent
"But Aesthetics is a force of change..."
Oh you sad person, when,
Tell me when has any aesthetic ideal
Forced political change
In any way shape or form?
"Surrealism," she whispered
Bullshit, I said -
Andre Breton and the Surrealists
Were riding on the coat tails of
True revolutionary left wing politics
Forging new forms in art to be sure
But in society: NO
Because poor people don't read poetry
At least not the poetry written by the rich
By rich privileged wankers who control
Who the poor are and where they can live
Did reading Rimbaud ever give a black man
Freedom? I don't think so.
But maybe if he had
He might understand
What it is to be a slave.

© shaun patrick green

Political Quatrain #14

Tony Abbott, Oh Tony Abbott
Please listen to your diocese
The Boat People are coming
Don't let them die on the high seas

© shaun patrick green 2013